Still here

Yikes...I am not very faithful at this...

I have not been very good at some of my goals, but one I have done very well with is the chip goal.

I am torn between thinking I am the laziest, least motivated, and spineless person alive, to trying to accept that my life is very full and taking care of my emotional needs may need to be more important than my physical needs. But then I just wonder if I am making excuses???

One good step I have taken is making an appointment for a physical. I am dreading it a little, because it will show how much weight I have gained over the last two years. It is so stupid that so much of my mind is worried about a number on a scale. Even when I weighed far less, I still worried about that number. I wonder why it is so hard to look at myself and just like me the way I am?


Well anyway, I am trying to stay focused on being healthier and happier, as opposed to "losing weight." I really liked the chip goal, and it feels good to be successful at it, so I guess for now, I will have to take silly baby steps. So food goal #2 is to not drink soda, or eat candy. Now I must qualify that by saying that I am not ready to give up chocolate...too much emotional stuff is tied into that. But there is a constant supply of sweet treats in my house that I eat without thinking. So--NO CHIPS and NO SWEETS.


I am going to recommit to my two exercise goals, the arm exercises and the funny doggie one.

And, for your visual pleasure, I have some photos done by my little mayflower(who just had a birthday and is looking more and more like a young woman...not fair!) and a few by me. Hers are so much better...maybe it isn't my camera that needs help, maybe it is me!