Still here

Yikes...I am not very faithful at this...

I have not been very good at some of my goals, but one I have done very well with is the chip goal.

I am torn between thinking I am the laziest, least motivated, and spineless person alive, to trying to accept that my life is very full and taking care of my emotional needs may need to be more important than my physical needs. But then I just wonder if I am making excuses???

One good step I have taken is making an appointment for a physical. I am dreading it a little, because it will show how much weight I have gained over the last two years. It is so stupid that so much of my mind is worried about a number on a scale. Even when I weighed far less, I still worried about that number. I wonder why it is so hard to look at myself and just like me the way I am?


Well anyway, I am trying to stay focused on being healthier and happier, as opposed to "losing weight." I really liked the chip goal, and it feels good to be successful at it, so I guess for now, I will have to take silly baby steps. So food goal #2 is to not drink soda, or eat candy. Now I must qualify that by saying that I am not ready to give up chocolate...too much emotional stuff is tied into that. But there is a constant supply of sweet treats in my house that I eat without thinking. So--NO CHIPS and NO SWEETS.


I am going to recommit to my two exercise goals, the arm exercises and the funny doggie one.

And, for your visual pleasure, I have some photos done by my little mayflower(who just had a birthday and is looking more and more like a young woman...not fair!) and a few by me. Hers are so much better...maybe it isn't my camera that needs help, maybe it is me!

Week Two

Anyone notice that it has been more than a week between week one and week two...???

Try to forget that little detail...and we will all move on.

So...adding to my little flying arm exercise, I will add an "on the floor-all fours exercise." This one is called "Bird Dog." You kneel, with your hands placed shoulder width apart, and with your head up, raise one arm, and the opposite leg, extending and holding parallel to the floor. I will try to do 12 on each side to start...we will see how this goes.

To help trigger myself to do this, I chose this one because it compliments being on my knees to pray.(tricky..huh!!!) So, if I remember to pray, I can just quickly do these.

FYI...my camera is MIA again, and the video camera has been hijacked to my husband's work..AAAAARGH!! I really want to post pictures of all my pretty flowers around the house. I am gleaning some from the internet...is that ok to do?...I just thought of that....opinions and advice welcome.

PS- to those who have already read this...I had gotten into the habit of having a candy bar on my break, each night I work. I justified it as "I deserve this." I have replaced my stash of candy bars with fiber bars. Seriously, they are pretty good--sweet and chocolate-y--I am not sure they are a HUGE improvement...but they just have to be better :) And I try to think "I deserve to feel good about myself..."